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I choose

Sometimes I get asked why I believe in God. A God. This God that I have never seen before or touched before. A God that I have no physical proof of. the Only proof I have is from men who used to be great sinners, thief’s, liars, murders, womanizer’s and cheaters. Men who deserved nothing but death because of actions they had committed in their life. How do you explain a God that forgives all these horrific actions? Who cleans slates of undeserving people like myself?

I choose to believe in God. I choose to believe in the one and only God, a maker, a designer of things, an artist of beautiful landscape, a friend, a companion, a shoulder to cry on. I choose to believe in Gods purpose to use his one and only son as a sacrifice so that we could obtain forgiveness thru him. So that we could freely accept the grace that is his love. I choose to believe in God because I would rather believe in something that brings comfort and satisfaction in my short and replaceable life. I would rather believe in someone who is perfect in all ways. In the thought that someone is better than myself. That there is someone who is kind, loving, healer of all diseases. I choose to believe that there is still good in this world. With all the negative input in the world, all the chaos that is greed, hatred, war mungers, disturbance of peace, jealousy, power hogs, and revengeful attitudes. I want to believe that there is a purpose to my life, that he has me here for a reason other than to live day by day wondering when it will be my last. Wondering if there’s any kind of impact on this world that i can make. I choose to believe that I have a friend in heaven watching me, encouraging me, loving me unconditionally, protecting me and is waiting for the day when he can meet me in person.. I choose to believe in God because I am NOT perfect.

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No name

No name
What happened to your fame?
That fame you so fondly chased.
Couldn’t find the satisfaction
Or the attraction
To keep me at ur side.
So you threw my soul away that I can no longer find.
Just keep in mind
The heart you broke isn’t so easy to unwind.
Unwind the time you stole
To fill the whole
That left me empty and hollow inside.
So I leave you with your fame
Because to me you have no name.

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Left behind

Left behind
I stood there starring at you as you walked away.
Leaving me there to disintegrate,
Into the pile of ashes u left behind.

Not a single second glance was given.
Not even for a minute.
Left me there in the cold dark night to fend.
Pushing me away leaving me no where to bend.

Now I’m left here with all these memories.
That I can’t seem to erase.
Should have known better than to let you be my base.
How sturdy you turned out to be.
Because it Crumbled right under my feet.
Underestimating the landing
I let myself fall face first instead of on my feet.

But it seems it was never enough.
So u destroyed me not knowing how rough it would be.
To turn away from me.
Leaving me in the dark to make tough.
The sorrow just might
Give me another day to fight.
To mend my broken heart That u left behind.

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Of Me

Beautiful

This poem was a hard one for me, but so very, very easy to write.

I have questioned my own size and shape since I was thirteen years old. After a school nurse was disappointed with my weigh-in, I went home and buried my face in my mother’s chest and wondered what I was “supposed” to look like. Too short, too tall, too thin, too wide. I drink and I eat sweets, but not a moment goes by without me questioning my shape and my own self worth along with it; these thoughts are a plague to those struggling with self esteem issues, from the time they climb out of bed to the moment they undress at night. And while each day is a struggle, I have managed to find small pockets of peace within myself. We are all different, and we are all beautiful in our own way. Who…

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Stumbling steps

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23 The Lord makes firm the steps
of the one who delights in him;
24 though he may stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.

I see a person and I do not ask myself what flaws does this person have. What accusations, what stones can I throw at this person. But instead, wonder what paths , what detours has this person taken. What circumstances, what situations has made this person into who they are. When I look at someone that has made some not so wise choices, I place myself in their shoes for a minute. Step back and want to heal their pain. I want to share the love that the lord has abundantly given me. Because the truth of the matter is I believe in humanity. I believe that even though so many people are lost I believe that with the power of Christ we can bring humanity and hope back into this world.

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Fear

Fear.
I can almost hear it like a fairy tale tear.
How do i overcome this fear?
To take it and break it till it haunts me no more
To return it and burn it till it can no longer be tore
Find me a place to hide so that I can no longer fight to survive.
Till my hope to rejoice is no loner a lie
Find me o lord in this darkened place I have called home
Wipe away the fear so I can learn to move on.
Show me the way so that fear is no longer an issue to see what u see in ur creation.
To see the fascination
That u see in me for future recognition
Fear
What is fear?
Fear that i no longer have u near.

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