Coffee Breather

Taking time away from all the job applications to catch up on just life. You ever get so busy that you completely get lost in it and forget to reflect and appreciate? These past years have done just that, disappear. So let me catch you up on the last five years.

I have managed to find my soul mate, married him, and move to San Antonio to pursue his dream of opening up his own law firm. Crazy right? The fact that all this has taken place in the last five years is even more chaotic. Granted we have only been here two years. It has been two years to long. For me anyways. I have been thru four different jobs.  All of which have had there own reason for why I had to leave. In the last two years I have also been diagnosed with type two Diabetes and Hypothyroidism. Both of which I still don’t completely comprehend. Someday’s are better than others with my condition. But I still can’t distinguish the tiredness from my hypothyroidism when my hormone levels are out of wack or my blood sugar is low. So that brings us full circle as to why I am sitting in a Starbucks sipping on a Caramel Frappuccino with my husband as he works and takes client phone calls and I’m scrolling thru job openings.

I said Goodbye to my kiddos on Friday. It was probably one of the hardest things I have had to do. But in the end I knew it was the right choice. I have been working in the direct care field for the past ten years. I must say they have been soul fulfilling, but after time that specific job can be very emotionally draining and physically exhausting. I loved my students. Still do. They gave me so many laughs the past year and a half. I will definitely miss seeing there warm innocent faces every day. My Alzheimer patience gave me so many great stories to share that I smile every time I think about them. And my Brain Injury Clients.. there so many things i could say about them.. They were my life. My life for almost seven years. the first four were spent as a full time rehabilitation technician and the other three were working part time taking them out into community. I loved it.I loved working with them everyday. Making them laugh and smile everyday was my job. I miss my guys so much. They were like family to me. I more than often find myself missing them when I am feeling down. They always knew when I was having an off day. They would sit me down and make sure I was always taken care of. I laugh now as I remember an ongoing joke I had with one of them. I would tell him he was my longest relationship due to the fact that I spent more time with him than I did with my own personal life. He would laugh and tell me I was too. They became my family. At that point in my life I wouldn’t have wanted it any other way. I enjoyed going in to work everyday and seeing each and everyone of their heart warming smiles as I helped them get ready for their day. They became a big part of my life as I theirs. After awhile you do realize that getting to close can be unhealthy and it’s often necessary to distance yourself especially when you lose one of your clients and it feels like you lost a family member. When this happened I had decided to go part time and only work for special outings.

What has me on this topic? Job hunting… I am a great caregiver. I can do it with my eyes closed and with one hand tied behind my back. Working in the same field for the past ten years gives you a self confidence about your skills. I have filed thirty plus job application in the past two weeks. I have had three interviews. Both of which I was told I was either over qualified or under qualified. The third one is a job interview that makes me a little uneasy just because I dislike office work. Sitting behind a desk for eight hours on the phone with people sounds just about horrible to me. But I wanted to do something different, take a chance and you never know maybe I will actually enjoy it. So I have decided to open up some closed doors, not knowing whats on the other side and jumping in head first to see if I land on something exciting. It’s like fishing. You throw your line out unto the lake over and over until one bites. If it’s the right size you take it home. If its to small you throw back in. Prayers for lots of fishes so I get the opportunity to chose which one I want to take home?


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